Ouch – this time around it was the University of Massachusetts at Amherst. Why did I apply to these schools again and not schools that I knew I’d get into? I’m crazy! I applied to amazing schools that are in the top ten. Each time I receive an email or letter (thin, one sheet), I know its a rejection letter. It’s making me wonder if I should give up this MFA thing in general; I’m trying not to but “deflation” is the word that’s coming to mind right now.
I keep going back and forth, right? I’m fine, I’m not fine, I’m fine, I’m not fine. At the end of the day, I’m ranting here for all the world to share (or not) my pain in this process. Then I get back into the reality game in which I read and write as usual. I haven’t been writing though – but I must! The goal this month is to submit something; I have to write!
I’m not a loser, a phony, a hack, or even lousy; practice makes perfect and I need more practice. Should start researching low residency options soon!